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Mother's Day, 1996

I remember it was a lovely day, sunny, and not too hot.

For some reason, I wanted to make it special for my mom.  She was not feeling that well, and was a bit depressed to boot.  I took over the kitchen and did some reorganizing and spring cleaning in it, bought her flowers (she loved getting flowers), and fixed a special dinner.  It was a pleasant day, one with little extra touches I didn't usually do.

Two weeks later, she died suddenly due to a coronary aneurysm.

Mother's Days have been hard for me since then, even though I have kids of my own who want to remember the day, too.   It always reminds me of how precious our loved ones are, and how doing those little things can matter, and how big the gap is when those people aren't there any more.

At moments like this, remembering how it was, even after all the time that has passed, that gap still hurts.

Appreciate those who are dear to you.  Let them know you care.  You'll never know when you won't get to tell them any more.



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May. 9th, 2010 07:41 pm (UTC)

Ah, the delicate balance between living each day to its fullest and sending out love but not living in panic, like anything could end at any moment and being tense and scared. Bravely going into the unknown, daily.

(Oh, and NOT sitting in the sun when on chemo drugs. Hello stupid Sensei.)

Happy Mother's Day, sweetie.

May. 9th, 2010 07:43 pm (UTC)
Nothing like photosensitive medication when you want the sun...

And hugs back to ya!

Living in panic, yeah, that's just not how to do it.

And happy Mother's day back at ya.
May. 9th, 2010 08:12 pm (UTC)
Sorry about the memories you have of your mother's death. I am sure that your mother appreciated all those things you did for her.

Happy Mother's Day
May. 10th, 2010 02:30 am (UTC)
As bittersweet as the memory of that Mothers' Day may be for you, at least you know you made it a wonderful one for your Mom.
May. 10th, 2010 12:31 pm (UTC)
That is a very sad story, but you make an excellent point.
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